New Year!...Same Me

The Pandemic made rethink my plans so I did what was best...I got rid of them all.

Covid19 Changed the Way I Engaged with Everything

I found me when I wasn't even looking for me. Corona exposed me... TOO MYSELF!

Yay! Finally it's the year where the entire world can say they've been waiting for, 2021 is here! "I can't believe I made it" and "forget 2020" was a common phrase amongst people towards the end of the year. Which honestly I cannot fault because I too were one of those people. Guilty. It's just 2020 did indeed simply sucked. It sucked the life out of me to the point where I didn't know what day it was or where I was for that matter. (Backstory: I had just relocated to Orlando so right before the quarantine started I had only lived here for 4 months). I knew once 2021 started I wanted to breathe fresh new air, but I realized as the New Year would roll in I, the same Dorothy, would roll into it as well.

Let me tell you something, I purposefully didn't make any resolutions for this year. I made a few new Pinterest boards full of visions and moods but nothing concrete. One thing Miss Corona Virus taught me was to get rid of my plans and to take several seats so she could talk about me and I would listen. Oh and listen I did. I found me when I wasn't even looking for me. Corona exposed me... TOO MYSELF! My feelings were hurt yes but I realized before this pandemic I hadn't really stopped and took out the time to learn about my family dynamic, my friendships or me. It wasn't a "what do I want" but rather "what do I need". I asked myself that question up to the very last day of 2020. There were deep underlying issues I thought I had conquered and slayed but instead they resurfaced and I was caught by surprise. I don't know if this was a good thing or a bad thing, all I know is that it was an eye opening experience.

Unfinished Promises.

Stepping into 2021 I immediately knew it was whatever it was gonna be, which could be depressing depending on how you look at it, but I knew Corona wasn't leaving just because the ball dropped at midnight. This is not a fairytale okay. I also knew the same Dorothy was going to enter the New Year. It was a New Year with the same me energy going around and I truly didn't mind it. I had a lot of personal problems that I still needed tending to and promises I made to God that still were being worked on. I couldn't let that die and disregard all of what I learned. So I am intentionally bringing my baggage luggage with me into the New Year. I know I know it's against ALL the New Year traditions people have but I have to be transparent during these times. I may have a few plans like my 30 by 30 to do list but they're extremely loose and long term plans for a future beyond the year 2021.

Encouragement for the Future

I encourage you all to reflect and do some good ole fashion soul searching (if you didn't do enough of that in 2020). Take what you've gained from the past year and put in your pocket to carry with you. It will keep you when you forget and that is one thing we all never forget...2020.